i really want to talk to you again...
honestly, i miss the times when we sit outside the mrt station and talk for hours
sometimes after angel mortal outing , we will send clare back first before returning home
the first time i entered cj , you will keep me company through messages
i really hope we can meet up again...



GOOD LUCK TO THE GUYS FOR THE FIRST COMPETITION TOMORROW!:)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GERALDINE AND RYAN!!!
yup yup on friday was geraldine's birthday but we only went out to eat today hahaha anyway they so mean hehe never tell me before hand that they were going to wear heels . well i dont really wear heels now but if they informed me first i might wear them again or maybe feel more prepared to stand beside two tall people. hahahaha so... today i feel very very short and i look the youngest beside them.took alot of photos! but geraldine refuse to make ugly expressions so in almost all the photos she is smiling while theresa and i make super unglam photos. :D

on thursday it was ryan's birthday! he always wear the same thing and his things are always spoilt so we decided to buy him things which are usable.the guys bought him 2 t shirts but 1 of them is used as a "birthday card" and the girls bought him 2 pairs of slippers as what we promised because ryan doesnt have one pair that is in good conditions ! LOL we wrote message on the shirt and the guys draw funny stuff on it hahaha i wished him happy birthday at 12.01 eh luckily he was online or else i wont be able to do that . oh on that day was our last match too . after the match, 2 guys came to find us and we had dinner at bishan.its my first time in bishan!! :D anways... we bluff them that we lost and they actually believed us! hahahaha we were all looking sad and unhappy . furthermore we created our own plot and storyline hahaha even until now i cant believe the guys actually believed it LOL

no more training!! all we need to do is just to go for training once in a while and help out to train the j1s till the official day when almost all j2s step down in may. well, i feel super weird and is not used to the fact that training has changed from 3 times a week to once a week. last friday was our first time not going for training. i went home and slept for the whole afternoon till dinner time. at 6 plus , i look out of the window and kept thinking that im suppose to have training now. haha is it some syndrome? i always want to skip training but now i miss hanging out with the girls and guys from volleyball. im not used to going home early . im not used to not go for team lunch after training almost every friday. hehe junks say they feel that training was quiet without the j2 girls and theresa said she almost called for my name when she was finding a partner till she realised that i wasnt there so she called for tivona instead. hahaha yup they are going to feel weird for a while and trainings will be even more empty for those j1s who know the j2s after the j2 guys finish their tournament. LOVE VOLLEYBALL PEOPLE! hehe must remember to have lunch or dinner together once in a while even if there isnt anymore trainings left to relieve A level stress! :)

GOOD LUCK TO THE GUYS NEXT WEEK! some of us are going to support you all for the nanyang match :) JIA YOU! JIA YOU!

i decided to go for training on friday but... haha its labour day! so i have to go next week then :/

as i was taking the train home from phs i told jo , steph and theresa that i have changed alot after entering cjc . then i started thinking how come i changed... the moment i enter cj, i start to gossip alot , complain alot and start to observe other people. i remembered when i was in kc, i gossip but didnt gossip as much as this year and i complained but didnt complain as much as this year. its like coming to jc makes me even more tired . i dont know why... haha but i think its hard to change back to the old me because sometimes its good to complain and gossip lol

and when theresa said that eversince she entered cj , she felt that her feelings are expressed more often. then i realised im like her. in volleyball i expressed alot about how i feel to my teammates and they were very nice to talk to me . i can say i cried the most infront of my teammates in this 2 years because of volleyball. i guess i really like the cca ALOT. i want to put in all my effort in playing this game. maybe that is why i feel sad sometimes. i think i will have to disagree to steph. she said we lack of the family element. to me , i think we have them to a certain extent. volleyball cca and friends have been the greatest part of my jc life. we are like a family , helping and supporting each other . its just that we didnt open up that family for the whole cca to be in it too. so i think from now on , we should open it up because im sure after the end of this year , we will have the BEST FRIENDSHIP ever! :D

start of volleyball competition!
today was... i dont really know how to describe but it certainly made our team closer. well we lost to dunman . it was very unexpected. all of us were disappointed with ourselves. the moment we went out of the hall to have a group talk, coach didnt scold us because he knows we were already disappointed with what we did today(i think he thinks that way). teacher talked to us but to me i feel it didnt has much effect on us because the greatest advice will always come from our own team members.everyone off form today , that wasnt us at all . we are much better than that . this game was crucial to us . we had to win this game, but i guess it was our first game so everyone were scared and stressed .

when teacher went off after our request , tiffany told us to sit closer and she said something that
really soften my heart, i think its not only mine but everyone's heart. (im going to shorten what was said) she said:"i asked god why this happened to us today, and i can hear him saying when we are playing in the game, we musnt keep thinking about winning , we have to think about something different from that and that will be FRIENDSHIP" after she said that tears flow out of her eyes again. not only did she cried, everyone did including me . its like she is so right, its not all about winning it is about keeping that friendship , have fun and play as a TEAM. After this , alot of people apologize for the mistakes they did . we stay there for 1 hour i think, our area were very silent. everyone just kept quiet . well as a reserve , i started saying what i feel. i told them they gave up very easily . the moment they miss their spike , i can see they have lost their confidence. i dont know why today we were like this . when the captain cheered, the others responded softly. those not in the game cheered loudly but i think they didnt hear those cheers. i told them " as what coach said the ball is dead and we are the one controlling how the ball will go not the other way round. we can do it . i mean some people even felt scared and gave up even before the game started. nobody is a burden to the team. if someone is trying very hard , we should pick up the courage to do our best too." alot of stuff were said by other people too. its like a confession session. and through this session , we finally know what are the true thoughts and feelings that were kept away from the team for a very long time . the group talk ended with a pray and a team cheer. when everyone felt much better some of us went to the food court to eat.

we should just forget our mistakes because its not a individual thing. volleyball is a team game. A TEAM means only with the involvement of EVERYONE , we can do well. if we keep on keeping the guilt in us , we will never perform our best. now the only thing i will do is pray that God... please help everyone , give them the courage and confidence to do well.We hope that the misunderstandings between the teammates will be cleared . yes,the next match will be tough but i pray that we will put in all our effort and win that school! even if we lose, we must lose with statisfaction that i have perform my best and show the other team that we didnt give up. and God.. please help every single person on the team , bless them and guide them to a path that will make them feel less stressed up .

JIA YOU VOLLAYBALLERS! we can do it! do our best! stop thinking negatively! and show them our true teamwork and skills! :D

happyhippyday!!!
yup yup went out with yuen ying, rhonda and wei zhen!!! my ex higher mother tongue and secondary school friends!!! miss them so much!!!as usual we went vivo AGAIN!!haha vivo is really a good place to talk especially the sky park . well although we cant really shop there because the clothes are really expensive but the sky park is worth the trip to vivo. actually if you are meeting up with your old friends, you wont even have the time and energy to shop because all the time and energy will be spent on talking!!! haha being with them makes me laugh alot . like seriously ALOT , i think they are the only ones who can make me laugh till i cry? especially rhonda and yy , they never fail to make me "cry" in every gathering. actually when we tried to categorize ourselves , we found out that there will always be one person who is the odd one out. yy and zhen are my hmt classmates, yy and rhon are my lower sec classmates, yy,rhon and zhen are upper sec classmates and now all of us are in different jcs. its so interesting to find out that everyone is somehow connected to each other till we form our own clinque. haha actually im the only one in 4/4, the others are all in 4/6...jelly and crystabel who couldnt make it today are also in 4/6... haha i guess its because im the only one who still stays in contact with them.
i mean seriously... if im stressed up, im going to meet them to talk till midnight!!! we didnt want to go home today... we wanted to talk till tomorrow but we know we cant because we have school tomorrow :( oh! and all of us decided to study together!!! well at least if i dont understand certain questions i can ask them ! because all of them are either from vj or sajc or hcjc or tjc haha they are all from good schools and in secondary school they were from the best class. so... studying with them might be very useful :) hopefully we wont end up talking on and on till we cant touch our books LOL

we watched FAST AND FURIOUS 4 too!!! haha sorry to someone, im suppose to watch with him but in the end i decided to watch that with my friends. haha the moment i went into the cinema , i messaged him and he became super jealous!! :D the movie was great! well in my own opinion, it didnt make me disappointed at all so everyone should just go and watch it now!!!! now i really feel like owning a sports car!! okay.... im going to save up money in the future to buy a sports car. if not... i will just marry a rich man!!! :D

THANKS YY , RHON AND WEI ZHEN FOR THE GREAT DAY!!! :)

sorry for the late entries...
been "busy" the whole week because alot of things happened, especially during volleyball trainings.
yup , im feeling better so i cant say much because im suppose to move away from those thoughts and work harder eventhough im not in the first team. well, last year i really worked hard, but this year i didnt. i dont know why and i dont know what caused me to lose energy and confidence but being said as "you cant play any position" by coach last week isnt something pleasant to hear. from spiker to setter to nothing. now the only thing i can do is to support the team and go for trainings . occasionally, i will ask myself whats the point of going but now im thinking "aiya just go la!" yup,so im still attending trainings and reaching home late...

i really love g^2 alot!!! they gave me all the encouragement that i need .haha i will always remember our cheer and will continue to support each other during the competition period. im very sure we will still be close after the season! so jo n steph, dont worry okay? :) generally i love volleyball team alot . maybe its because the game, we help each other and encourage each other on court. so even if we arent on the court , we will still help each other outside of the court! its the nature of the game that influences us :) thanks tiVOna! i know ive been really sad but im fine now!thanks for all the encouragement when you were by my side in sa. thanks alot!
g^2 FTW!!!!! BURN!!! hahahahahhahaha

ohh and last wed was april fool's day. lol sf is really bad at bluffing people . hahhahaha he should have use late as the reason rather than the one he used hahahahhaha even until now im still laughing because whatever he did , its totally not true! hahaahaha im already quite blur and hard to notice people lying to me but this time , that bluff was so obvious till i can notice it hahaha so sf! try again next year and see whether i will fall into your tricks again haha

oh oh oh and one more new interesting thing. CJC2T10, Food Planner April 2009! meixi, charmaine and i are always finding new cravings . well actually meixi is always the one who starts all the cravings ranging from pratas which eventually we went to eat last week, kfc, ajisen ramen, sushi buffet and many more. so we came up with this planner to make sure we go and eat those food. so on 20th April(Mon), it will be the third monday of the month, so we decided to go ajisen ramen since there will be a 50% off on that day. On 21st April(Tue) , its Ben and Jerry's Free Cone Day!!! this year i must go and queue up and get that free icecream! last year i was quite stupid, i went to queue up but in the end i decided not to take the icecream LOL so this year i must go! hope the whole class can go together! :):)
haha i think after this month's food planner, im going to be fat . but its okay, i decided to run every sunday to burn them off! :D

is nicola coming back soon?