TWO DAYS LEFT
Oh my, today is really very tiring , sitting in the library studying econs and geog is really tiring because i had to cramp up all this memorizing work in my small brain. I feel like inventing a new brain or a brain enlarger so that people can remember more things in the future.Today i went home right after the library closes, this is my earliest time of all my studying days. Oh and i think there is a ghost around me or something, i lost 2 things this week and last week... One was my flask next was my gc!!! Both are the most expensive stuff a student can have when studying. I checked the library and my house both cant be seen anywhere... Where are they?Tomorrow when i go bugis for japanese class i think i will have to quickly get my gc and the normal calculator for my math paper...My mum just scolded me cause usually i dont lose things... Haha there is three type of person in my house. First is my brother who always will pick up stationary that people left behind,next is my sister who always lose her things ( she lost especially her watch thousand of times already haha) and me who seldom lose things... But now i have nearly lost my watch once but found and now i lost my bottle and gc this year.how nice..feel like killing myself now...

Oh and i heard today that my cousin cant come over already... Sad... Then for dont know what reason, my mum and i were discussing about the topic of comparing results. She say if any family members always want to compare the results of her children to their children she will be very unhappy. Then i start thinking that actually comparing results are really a motivation sometimes for people to do better. For my mum's character, she will not force us to study. she even said that if i really dont want to study its ok for her but i was thinking how can we not study, even now the subject of art has to be studied too so that we can get a career in the future... Sometimes im jealous of families that are strict on their child because it could be a drive that helps them to do their best. The only thing i dont like is that they might not study as happy as i am. For my whole life my mum never scolds me about my studies. But i was the one with the lowest scores for psle and the highest score for o level in my family. If i hadnt compared myself to my siblings i think i wont even be able to enter a jc today. In sec 2 i even nearly drop to normal academic because i fail my english but the school allowed me to continue express.. Only and the start of secondary 4, i started serious studying putting more effort into my work. So that i can break my parents expectation. They told me they expected me to go polytechnic because in all my life my results were not good. They were very surprised that i got into jc. They even feel that im crazy because i was crying like mad when i received my results and was unhappy with it...I guess at that time i have my own expectation for myself but i didnt achieve it. My parents expectation for me is low, sometimes i just hope it can be higher...For all this years im the one who make my own expectation not them . They once said,some people only do well in studies in the later part of their life, and i think they were referring to me. I hope so too. With only a year and a half left, my aim is to do well in my a levels thats all. JC is the hardest stage in our education period after graduating from jc and proceeding to university will be the happiest thing happening to all of us.

Oh but dont get me wrong , im not a super competitive girl, whatever results i get i will just face the reality.Im not going to lose friendship just because of stupid study competitions. :):)